Posted: 30 October, 2016
by Cricket Newsroom
Brad Hogg Reveals He Considered Ending His Life In Stunning Book Extract
"I knew I was being a misery guts."
Brad Hogg has revealed how his initial cricket retirement and divorce caused him to consider ending his life.
Hogg wrote in his biography The Wrong 'Un, which is being released on Monday, about how deep he sunk in 2007 and 2008 after having to retire due to injury and splitting with his wife Andrea.
"I knew I was being a misery guts. I was even giving myself the shits. I'd meet someone and all I could talk about was how stuffed up my life was," he wrote.
"Sometimes I drove down to Fremantle to think about what was going on in my life. I parked my car at Port Beach and went for a walk. I'd stare out at the sea and think, I could swim out to that groyne, and if I make it back, fine. If I don't make it back ... well, hard luck. I was prepared to let fate decide. I was in a really dark space.
"I did that Fremantle drive four times. And each time I thought about doing something really drastic. Thinking and doing are two completely different things, thankfully, and there was never really a moment when I was going to take off my clothes and start swimming. It was more about contemplating what it would be like if I had decided to end it all. Nonetheless, it was frightening that I was having these negative thoughts on a regular basis."
After hitting "rock bottom", Hogg set out on a mission to achieve "sobriety and purpose".
He returned to cricket, eventually becoming one of the most distinguished players for the Perth Scorchers in the Big Bash League - and now the Melbourne Renegades - as well as finding love, with partner Cheryl Bresland.
Hogg's book is available Monday.
Anyone across Australia experiencing a personal crisis or thinking about suicide can contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.